I don't really know what I want to do. rather I don't know If I can do the things I want to do. Being in my last stages of youth, the first thing I want to do is move to japan as soon as posible.I want to do the things I want to do while im still young. Im just so confused as to what too do, I want to do many things not just one. I come from a very hardworking family that worked it's way up the economy and have now become pretty wealthy, and my family is very art oriented (well my siblings and cousins really). My sister has become a succesfull architech/internal designer and my brother is actually an actor, one of my cousins is a very talented opera singer, and one is majoring in the english language. As you can see im pretty much the differen't one in the family, A stylish otaku who blends in with everyone enough not be seen as an outcast.
Im a real nightlife type of person and love the entertainment insdustry (in Japan anyways) and I really want to be an actor in japan. I watch alot of jdrama and I just love the acting scene. I know that it's one of the hardest thing to do since I think I wont blend in. Actually I know that I wont blend in with my race and skin color, it seems impossible. I also woulden't mind owning a nightclub, or be a profesional drifter ( I also have a heavy love for cars). As you can see Im a person with very big dreams of making it big someday, but Im really just a senior in highschool who is just behind a computer screen. Im worried that I won't be able to live a joyfull life and that all I would have done would have been a waste. Im scared that my future won't turn out what I wan't it to be and end up living a life I don't enjoy.Sometimes im scared that I may be moving too fast or too slow. I already know alot of people who have their eyes set on a carrer, but I just think that my passions are too hard to obtain. My mind is still so mixed up about everyhing I just don't know what to do. I I know that I shoulden't be complaining most of the time and that I should start acting, but its hard. When I look at it its seems very far away like a never ending desert. I already know that im falling behind even though I am still pretty young. It just seems so big and unobtainable it even looks impossible. All I really have is the japanese that i've been studying the past 4 years.
But I still feel this little hope. This energy thats telling me that I can make it. Danny, really I dont know what I would be if I haven't found this site. I consider you to be one of my biggest inpirations in life as alot of us do. I really admire your hard work in life and it just makes me want to go out there and just do everything. Danny, I see you as one of my greatest inspirations, and my one of my greatest rivals :]. Maybe if I do make it one day, I can thank you personaly. I hope. (
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2008/09/10 11:24
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XTaku Hayward, California